Friday, November 30, 2012

surfing


So obsessed with surfing. 
Even though I still can't really surf now,
but I am so into it!

After the first surfing lesson last Saturday, I found myself have poor physical capability,
and kept being wash back by the waves. 
The coach hold the nose of the board for me so I could walk in the waves. 
Even though I swapped to the lightest board, I still had trouble walking in the waves.
Things got worse after practicing standing up on the board.

In fact, you are not standing up gradually in the water.
You need to pop up fast otherwise you will loose the balance. 
After popped up several times on the beach, I was exhausted. 
Even though coach hold the board for me and all I need to do was pop up,
I had no strength left to do that. 

Darren (the coach's name):  if you don't want to stand up, that's fine.
I : I want to, but I can't.
Darren: you can, use your muscle.

I found this conversation funny, sounds like the lines in the scene. 

Weird is that I can't even swim properly, but I don't fear of water.
I reckon I always want to try things that I am not comfortable with. 
I am not comfortable with height, but I tried skywalk in Tassie.
I can't breathe smoothly in water, but I went snorkelling in the middle of the ocean. 
I've never done social science study before, but I took the community course at uni.
I don't know why I did these things, I didn't even realise when I made these decisions. 






such a weird person.



Wednesday, November 7, 2012

sorry seems to be the hardest word


道歉真不是件容易的事,對別人來說是這樣,對我來說也是這樣。
最近的練習成果,頂多也只能做到當發現是我的錯的時候,我不狡辯。
通常是跟指正的人的態度有關。
當他一副咄咄逼人,得理不饒人的樣子的時候,就會很不想說對不起。
然後當你指正他的時候,他又一直諸多解釋的時候。
然後他解釋的理由又狗屁不通的時候...


沒錯這就是我心裡的os...
不過非常感謝上帝,以前發生這種事情的時候,我只會在心裡暗暗的想著他人的不是。
但是最近上帝透過別人種種讓我不悅的舉動,
讓我看到我是怎樣的"看到弟兄眼中的刺,卻看不到自己眼中的梁木"的人。
我著實的看到自己是怎樣的不願意道歉,還有我對別人的行為是怎樣的無法忍受。
完全就是個老老實實的罪人樣。

但剛剛聖靈提醒我,如果道歉是向上帝承認錯誤呢??
無關乎道歉的對象態度如何,無關乎道歉的對象是不是值得道歉,
就只是單純的承認自己的錯誤。
就算別人態度不佳,我還是做錯了事啊!
就算別人做錯事沒有道歉,也不代表我做錯事也不用道歉啊!
如果因為別人不道歉,所以我也不道歉,
這豈不是就是最標準的"好的不學,盡學些壞的"??

努力學習承認自己的錯誤,向上帝和自己誠實。
這樣想著,道歉好像也不是那麼難的一件事了。
至少我是向完全、沒有瑕疵的上帝認錯,向祂道歉最天經地義了!!
沒有什麼拉不拉的下臉、公不公平的問題。

最後拿一句強尼戴普叔叔教凱特阿姨的話來勉勵自己。





Never complain, never explain.